This shirt explains the situations i was in this week. All i wanted to do was mumble awkward under my breath and WALK AWAY...walk away fast. Here is the reason for this unique picture ...i happened to run into an old friend that i hadn't seen in a long time. Long story short I felt things ended badly...and we never came to terms with anything, we just left them up in the air...so you can imagine how awkward this was . To be completely honest...i kinda hoped i'd never have to see him again. Not because of a hate i had towards him,but simply because i didn't want to deal with the anxiety and complicity of it all. I guess i thought I could pretend nothing happened, why not right? sounds easy enough?. Well without getting into the nitty gritty of it all. In the past three days i've seen this person more than twice. May i remind you it's been months since i've spoken to or seen this person...crazy right?...why on earth would this dude show up more than twice in two days!!.The first time i see him is driving when i was on my way to work...and my initial reaction was all okay, cool that was weird,but it's a small town it's a coincidence, no big deal. But to my surprise that very same day i see him in this sandwich shop, which i think would be the LAST place i'd see him honestly. So of course i leave there thinking...okay now that was kinda really weird.
After running things through my mind a thousand times (like i do always) i went to coffee with a dear friend of mine, because of course when things get weird you call the people you love the most right?As I started explaining what happened my friend began to ask me questions which led to talking about the way things ended between me and the person in the sandwich shop and we realized there was some things left unsaid and pretty much there was just a big fat elephant hangin out there... i told her "i feel like if the lords wanting me to confront this ...then he'll open a door for me too"... She smiled and goes "well mackenzie is seeing someone 3 time in 2 days not a BIG enough door for you to notice maybe gods already opened it"...and of course i sat there like "oh...that makes sense..duh why didn't i think of that" ha!LOVE ya emily:).
After running things through my mind a thousand times (like i do always) i went to coffee with a dear friend of mine, because of course when things get weird you call the people you love the most right?As I started explaining what happened my friend began to ask me questions which led to talking about the way things ended between me and the person in the sandwich shop and we realized there was some things left unsaid and pretty much there was just a big fat elephant hangin out there... i told her "i feel like if the lords wanting me to confront this ...then he'll open a door for me too"... She smiled and goes "well mackenzie is seeing someone 3 time in 2 days not a BIG enough door for you to notice maybe gods already opened it"...and of course i sat there like "oh...that makes sense..duh why didn't i think of that" ha!LOVE ya emily:).
Well then i was like shoot 3 different opportunitys to confront it and i've missed all them...go me! haha. But god never dissappoints does he???....I go to lunch today with my best friend which is a typical day for me...and about half way into our lunch the door swings open...and what do ya know...he walks in. Me and my friend and the people at the table next to me (who know the situation) all just try to keep ourselves from bursting in laughter...because OF COURSE RIGHT, this would happen. haha. i tried to keep my composure while jordyn couldn't get out the rest of her sentence because she was going to die laughing i just kept saying"continue jordyn...CONTINUE". I bet you are all thinking finally she walked up and said something...but nope...didn't have it in me.
But believe it or not we ended up connecting later that day. Not like i expected, but it feels okay now, before i always felt unsettled about the situation, i felt like there was a lot of "what if's" and "how come"...and just a lot of wondering. I'm happy to say thats over. I've learned a lot. I've just noticed i'm never too comfortable for long, gods always down for another adventure of "How can mackenzie love better"
Thanks god for opening doors and closing them in your timing.
I love You.
But believe it or not we ended up connecting later that day. Not like i expected, but it feels okay now, before i always felt unsettled about the situation, i felt like there was a lot of "what if's" and "how come"...and just a lot of wondering. I'm happy to say thats over. I've learned a lot. I've just noticed i'm never too comfortable for long, gods always down for another adventure of "How can mackenzie love better"
Thanks god for opening doors and closing them in your timing.
I love You.