The Adventure of "How can Mackenzie Love better Today???"

Have you ever been in situations where you think to yourself "is god trying to tell me something????" or is this just a coincidence?. Some people don't believe in coincidence...and well I...I just don't know how i feel about the word coincidence, especially when it comes to seeing people i used to know...it's always easier to just think it's a coincidence.

This shirt explains the situations i was in this week. All i wanted to do was mumble awkward under my breath and WALK AWAY...walk away fast. Here is the reason for this unique picture ...i happened to run into an old friend that i hadn't seen in a long time. Long story short I felt things ended badly...and we never came to terms with anything, we just left them up in the air...so you can imagine how awkward this was . To be completely honest...i kinda hoped i'd never have to see him again. Not because of a hate i had towards him,but  simply because i didn't want to  deal with the anxiety and complicity of it all. I guess i thought I could pretend nothing happened, why not right? sounds easy enough?. Well without getting into the nitty gritty of it all. In the past three days i've seen this person more than twice. May i remind you it's been months since i've spoken to or seen this person...crazy right?...why on earth would this dude show up more than twice in two days!!.The first time i see him is driving when i was on my way to work...and my initial reaction was all okay, cool that was weird,but it's a small town it's a coincidence, no big deal. But to my surprise that very same day i see him in this sandwich shop, which i think would be the LAST place i'd see him honestly. So of course i leave there thinking...okay now that was kinda really weird.

After running things through my mind a thousand times (like i do always) i went to coffee with a dear friend of mine, because of course when things get weird you call the people you love the most right?As I started explaining what happened my friend began to ask me questions which led to talking about the way things ended between me and the person in the sandwich shop and we realized there was some things left unsaid and pretty much there was just a big fat elephant hangin out there... i told her "i feel like if the lords wanting me to confront this ...then he'll open a door for me too"... She smiled and goes "well mackenzie is seeing someone 3 time in 2 days not a BIG enough door for you to notice maybe gods already opened it"...and of course i sat there like "oh...that makes sense..duh why didn't i think of that" ha!LOVE ya emily:). 

Well then i was like shoot 3 different opportunitys to confront it and i've missed all them...go me! haha. But god never dissappoints does he???....I go to lunch today with my best friend which is a typical day for me...and about half way into our lunch the door swings open...and what do ya know...he walks in. Me and my friend and the people at the table next to me (who know the situation) all just try to keep ourselves from bursting in laughter...because OF COURSE RIGHT, this would happen. haha. i tried to keep my composure while jordyn couldn't get out the rest of her sentence because she was going to die laughing i just kept saying"continue jordyn...CONTINUE". I bet you are all thinking finally she walked up and said something...but nope...didn't have it in me.

But believe it or not we ended up connecting later that day. Not like i expected, but it feels okay now, before i always felt unsettled about the situation, i felt like there was a lot of "what if's" and "how come"...and just a lot of wondering. I'm happy to say thats over. I've learned a lot. I've just noticed i'm never too comfortable for long, gods always down for another adventure of "How can mackenzie love better"


Thanks god for opening doors and closing them in your timing. 
I love You.

Trust.TRust.TRUst.TRUSt.TRUST.

There's been so many blog ideas racing through my mind these last few months, that i've been meaning to spit out and type out. so here we go.

Trust. TRust. TRUst. TRUSt.TRUST.
This is what my journey of trust looked like to give you a visual picture of the process...it started out small and day by day got...


Bigger,Bolder,&Stronger.


For a month or so i felt like the lord continued to ask me questions like"do you trust me"..."are you trusting me"..."do you trust that if i take this away i will still make all things good"..."do you trust that i'm closer than your very own breath" He began to speak things to me like...I know the sound of your laugh, I hear your weeping in the middle of the night, in your broken-ness i begin to restore in MY TIMING,in your confusion i bring clarity and peace beyond YOUR understanding, your a child of LOVE and i am the greatest teacher of love...i AM love...&i remain the same." ...

One morning in this particular month I was driving down shasta view, there was nothing special about this day just a normal morning,when in a moment the lord showed me that when i say the words "i trust you" they hold more weight than i could have possibly of fathomed. I realized god wanted to take me on a whole new adventure of life with him. He wanted to show me just how precious trusting him is. He wanted to show me how faithful of a father he is to me. He wanted me to discipline myself and change the way my mind was translating the word trust. He wanted to show me a new meaning and unlatch any former meaning of trust that i'd ever known and give it to him trusting he'd make something beautiful out of it . He did just that. He showed me how much bigger he was than any circumstance that came my way. He showed me how his truth will always stand where any lie tries to creep in. He showed me that his promises are not something to be taken lightly. With all this came an indescribable freedom that i had never felt before...and trust me i've felt freedom before, but this freedom was just different and lovely.


This was not an easy task for me. It was so uncomfortable for me. There were days where i'd want to just take all the control back and be like oh god you can sit in the passenger seat...i'll just drive i'm more comfortable that way anyways...but through it all i learned a lot about myself and my tendencies as a women of god. I took this process one day at a time. It was beautiful, it was messy, it was good. God's grace is so good.His love is undeniable.