Trust.TRust.TRUst.TRUSt.TRUST.

There's been so many blog ideas racing through my mind these last few months, that i've been meaning to spit out and type out. so here we go.

Trust. TRust. TRUst. TRUSt.TRUST.
This is what my journey of trust looked like to give you a visual picture of the process...it started out small and day by day got...


Bigger,Bolder,&Stronger.


For a month or so i felt like the lord continued to ask me questions like"do you trust me"..."are you trusting me"..."do you trust that if i take this away i will still make all things good"..."do you trust that i'm closer than your very own breath" He began to speak things to me like...I know the sound of your laugh, I hear your weeping in the middle of the night, in your broken-ness i begin to restore in MY TIMING,in your confusion i bring clarity and peace beyond YOUR understanding, your a child of LOVE and i am the greatest teacher of love...i AM love...&i remain the same." ...

One morning in this particular month I was driving down shasta view, there was nothing special about this day just a normal morning,when in a moment the lord showed me that when i say the words "i trust you" they hold more weight than i could have possibly of fathomed. I realized god wanted to take me on a whole new adventure of life with him. He wanted to show me just how precious trusting him is. He wanted to show me how faithful of a father he is to me. He wanted me to discipline myself and change the way my mind was translating the word trust. He wanted to show me a new meaning and unlatch any former meaning of trust that i'd ever known and give it to him trusting he'd make something beautiful out of it . He did just that. He showed me how much bigger he was than any circumstance that came my way. He showed me how his truth will always stand where any lie tries to creep in. He showed me that his promises are not something to be taken lightly. With all this came an indescribable freedom that i had never felt before...and trust me i've felt freedom before, but this freedom was just different and lovely.


This was not an easy task for me. It was so uncomfortable for me. There were days where i'd want to just take all the control back and be like oh god you can sit in the passenger seat...i'll just drive i'm more comfortable that way anyways...but through it all i learned a lot about myself and my tendencies as a women of god. I took this process one day at a time. It was beautiful, it was messy, it was good. God's grace is so good.His love is undeniable.